Patheticism

A Poem by Eden

i want you

but i'm slowly seeing

that i'll never get to see that through

and these, these hands they tire

from waiting, holding the phone for you

tick tock

and the clock won't stop

but i want, i need it to

look around wondering, "where are you?"

cause my heart speeds up when you're around

but the clock only winds up to let me down

i know i know

you want all the pretty boys to take you home

sha sha shaking from the mistakes you are making

and i watched you pour in from the tide

and i picked you up, i think i said you we're okay

i think i lied

but i guess it's all the same

I carried you across the sand

so your feet wouldn't get dirty as you held on to my hand

cause i always had this sick want to take care of you

but you'd let me cause you always knew (you always knew)

i can't sit still

and this is how it feels

when the one you love always disappears

and now i refuse to be the backbone

to someone else's mistake

take what you can get and get what you can take

my heads to the wall

and something keeps telling me you're not gonna call

i may be the one who's pathetic

but i took what you said, sue me cause i thought you meant it

and i pace the floor tearing my brain

trying to remember what you felt like, trying but i'm going insane

and you are what i love you for

but isn't it enough for you?

my backs sealed to the floor

and may i say i loved you more

i sat you at the oceans end
you stared at me like you lost your best friend

and i cried because i knew the waves were coming

to take you away, to take you away

to a place where i can't follow you anymore,

this is the last day, this is the last day

and when you find whatever it is you were looking for

the tide will bring you back my way, the tide will bring you back my way

so when you drift to sea i think i'll go on home

and lay in bed and rest my weary head all alone

                                 and pray to god that he'll take you where you too can find home
                                     where you can rest your broken body and heal all your sores
                        now is it safe to say, i think i loved you more