dignity lost and found

a piece about the worst night of my life

He told me he wanted me off birth control by next year so we can start having babies

I guess I had fucked up his plans since he had tried a few minutes prior to that statement to try and knock me up

 

He was so proud of himself

He made sure to tell me he for NO reason condoned Abortion

Funny coming from a man I would later find out from the police was a convicted Rapist

My rapist

Known as a rapist to others

 

He forcefully worked to persuade me that I would not leave that van

without committing to be his girlfriend

I suppose it would ease his conscience and clear his record

We had a real future because his mama wanted him to be with a “woman like me”

A woman he had only met a day before for 30 minutes

 

Control

When you believe it is your fault you make it possible to fight your demons:

Why did I go to campaign headquarters?

Why did I believe my friends would be there?

Why did I get in the van?

Why did I not slam him in the face and run?

 

If I allow myself to blame him I fight a man behind bars

A man without the mental capacity to love

Invisible

 

Empowerment

 

One moment that lasted about an hour  

Changes you

Makes me question my dignity

Yet, it is so important to me to be resilient for others

 

Balance

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Kara Hadley]

is this a true story? i really hope it is not.
oh dear. a really good story.