Eephemeral Happiness

I am wondering why I am so happy without any reason. Everything around me looks so beautiful. All the trouble I thought I had somehow vanished. I can hear beards chirruping and crows cawing all in a happy tone.

Not sure where this sudden stream of happiness coming from. It happened to me earlier as well. It keeps happening sometimes a month or maybe more. Not quite sure about the frequency.

And then there is another side of this feeling too. I sometimes think it is a way for our body to detox itself from all the negative feelings I am having.

Some kind of flush that cleanses all the worry, trouble, and expectations and I start feeling like a monk who does not need more. All happy with what he has. No ambitions, no urge to possess more, just enjoy everything around.

I started feeling happy about other's success. Their happiness in enjoying worldly pleasure makes me feel happy. I stopped judging others for their choices. It felt like I understood what they were doing and why and without passing any advice or being all judgemental about their choice of life, I understood.

I may or may not be living the same life they have but I felt love and compassion towards them.

I know this feeling may not last very long. I wish it did. I wish I could request it to stay for more time. May be become my permanent guest.

But I know it is not possible. My urge to have that feeling for long and fear of it going away may tell a lot about myself.

But I am happy that I acknowledge it exists. I think I need to discover more about myself to have a permanent space for it in my heart.