pretending to be

If they knew what my life was like

im sure theyd leave me alone

i smile and laugh, pretending im fine

everythings okay.

they have no idea what i come home too

there's more than meets the eye

i may appear to be stuck up and bitchy

but i live a double life.

I can be the happiest girl in the world

an over achiever with places to go

but i come home

and turn from gold to gray.

useless dust

to be swept up and pushed away.

forgotten

till yet another fight has started.

then they pick up my empty cloth and let

the wind fill me back up with the terrors and screams

they wring me out and throw me back to the dark

i go to my room and get a call from a friend

i jump out and lay on my bed

they tell me how their familys a b***h

cause she didnt get what she wanted

i suck up my tears and agree her life sucks

but i dont tell them a thing about me.

i must pretend to be perfect

i try to be happy and snappy and bright

i am till i come home and they blow out my light.