Ghost's from the past

The shadows block the light of the sun today

Sadness is wrapped around me like a blanket

It is more than the passing of my father

It is that old familiar, nauseating feeling

Something bad is coming this way

I close my eyes, and breathe in and out

As scenes from past flash before me

So many faces I have not seen since I was a child

Ghost’s from the past that want to stay

Quiet voices asking me to come out and play

With my eyes still closed I start to count

One, for anger and violence

Two, for fear and silence

Three, for you and me

Four, remember you are FREE

I take a deep breath as I continue to count

Hoping the ghosts just disappear

Cease the return of this paralyzing fear

Freezing my very thoughts

Their very presence takes me back

To a childhood nightmare

Of windowless rooms

Darkness and shadows

Control

and doom

Dysfunction

Lost families

Broken lives

Some people

Can’t go home

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

This was wrote after the passing of my father....it took me months to understand where this came from................

Reviews

[Pema Dorje]

sometimes we re-experience the impressions of the past as they are leaving us, like when we heal from a long sickness, just before we get better we get sick all over again ... the way of this water body, and our brain is mostly water... yhis piece feels like that dark windowless room... well crafted feelings

[bluessadmood]

oh dear ,this is full of sad emotions,i could feel it right away...these lines were so strong
The shadows block the light from the sun today
Sadness is wrapped around me like a blanket

It is more than the passing of my father
and you felt a big something is coming this way
i do not blame you loss of a father would shake anyone we feel like everything is falling apart
then the strange feelings like ghosts from the past,its too sad
and you just hope you will feel a moment of quiet,where them Ghost will just let you be
this is so strong and no wonder ,big events in life shake life itself,shake the whole world around us ,we falter,we do not know where to move or look or what to do its like for a moment we feel paralysed ,like time and space all stop right there what a nasty feelings ,oh you wrote this with great emotions ,i could feel every word you said,thank

[*** Hey Jude***]

This is an extraordinary expression of such powerful life events; causing energy within that reaches out and draws me to the next verse. I feel as if I am experiencing this piece as you describe life dealings that I am famliar with. This stanza is powerful, as is the whole piece!
"One, for anger and violence
Two, for fear and silence
Three, for you and me
Four, remember you are FREE"
Thank you for sharing this heartfelt piece ~ Judi xo

[Poeser]

The image that stuck with me most is that when faced with ghosts, we inevitably revert back to childlike behaviors-closing our eyes and counting our way back to peace of mind and normalcy. Of course, "peace of mind" is often short-lived when the ghosts reside in one's mind.

[Orlando Murcia]

I hate having fear
I suffered a lot of anxiety
because of fear

Thank you for sharing this piece
I enjoyed reading it it was great

Orlando M

[PENS FOR PEACE /TJ CALI..]

A very wonderful poem! Everyone is at times haunted from some sought of ghost from their past!
They are usually things that we have seen and felt wrong or fear deep down in are souls!
You did a great job capturing yours! Simply well done.
Good luck iwth all your future works!
TIM

[Victoria Lee~]

I am thinking of editing this. I have come to terms to where this came. And might be able to make it better.

[TAYLOR]

RELEASING GHOSTS FROM OUR PAST IS PART OF THE HUMAN CONDITION...PUTTING ALL OUR EMOTIONS IN A FILE..SO WELL WRITTEN .... A SIDE STREET FORM YOUR NORMAL WORK ..THAT PROVES YOU ARE A WONDERFUL WRITER..I TRULY LOVE YOUR WORK.... AS MUCH AS I DO YOU

[Blackbirdsong]

This is a really wonderful journey through a progression of feelings; pain, sorrow, loss, and even healing. There are a couple of places where you have rhyme and for me, those are the weakest places in this piece. Your voice is so strong throughout and your message so strong and powerful, you really don't need anything but the raw reality of your voice. The rhyming takes away from that wonderful raw eloquence.

[NJ Schneider]

I really like the flow this has, it makes it very easy to read. I truelly think memories are made to haunt us because I know that ill feeling very well. It's almost become a part of who I am. I really love this, you can feel the sorrow and the loss. This is amazing!

[Ghostdarlin]

Beautifully written! I like how the rhyming scheme goes and draws you in and the pictures it forms are ones that no child should experience and no adult should have to remember. Hugs!