I don't want friends.

Just venting some anger.

Right, so hey.
You'll probably stop reading this at any point because you will find out that it's basically one big rant coming from the dramatic but uneventful point of view of a teenage girl.
I'm just writing this because I need to let this out, it eats away at me if I have to keep it in. So yeah, this is how I'm choosing to share my emotions.
I have a small circle of friends, okay. And we all used to be a lot closer than we currently are, this is because unfortunately people change. Sometimes for the better and, in this case, sometimes for the worse. Well, my friend, which I will not name even though I doubt they will ever find this, is the sort of person that changes personality like she changes knickers. One minute she's this person who is best friends with her, then the next she is obsessing over another 'best-friend'.
This makes it extremely hard to be friends with her, this is because I really don't like the person she is becoming at the moment. She has fallen in with an entirely, she we say, 'different' crowd that is altering not only her personality, but her morals too. For example, just recently she threw a party which I did attend. Well, most of the people that turned up were her friends friends, and they were there doing drugs and sleeping with each other. Which was something my friend would have never tolerated in her house, let alone join in with. So, you guessed it, she did in fact get herself in with this action. Resulting in her sleeping with two different men in the same night.
This is completely out of character for her and it shocked me. I know people might think that is entirely normal for a teenage girl to be sleeping around and having fun, but it's not normal for her to do it.
Look, what I'm getting at here is that I really dislike having friends. My others are all so far up each other's arses that they wonder around asking where the light switch is. If I confront one, then they all retaliate, which I think is completely pathetic, don't you?! I mean, have some originality, jeez.
Every time I think about them I get angry, I don't want to but I can't help it. They are all just so two faced it's crazy but I think I'm scared that if I'm not friends with them then I'll be entirely on my own.
Thanks for reading, if you've braved it this far anyway.

Author's Note

It would be great if you could help me out here, maybe a little advise? Idk any reviews are good ones I guess.
Sorry for being such a hormonal teenager.
Thanks.

Reviews

[Patricia Hernandez]

YOu should confront her about it, remind her of what you used to be. You see all those movies... and people usually NEVER talk things out, that is wrong. Sit down with her, buy her lunch and express how you miss her, who she IS. Perhaps you can have a sleepover and she will be reminded of who she was, just try to make her see where she is going... And if she gets mad you have to remember, you cant change her, but you can help her. Maybe she will be mad, but you need to keep your cool and calm her down, remind her that you mean no harm. Dont TELL her what she SHOULD do because she could take it like you're trying to 'decide for her' or something like that. I know what you mean, try to spend more time with her. :) good luck, not sure if this helped (I am also a teen girl)
Anyhow, if u ever need someone to talk to or to ask advice from (that isnt an adult) Im here, i really mean it :))
-Patricia

[Vickie]

Thank you so much for the advice, it has cleared up a lot of stuff in my head.
The same goes to you, if you ever need anyone then you know where I am.

[Mia C.]

I definitely understand how you feel. My ex-best friend did something very similar. She jumped into a relationship with an emotional abuser, and pretends that it's a fairytale. She pretends to be someone she's not for people she doesn't even like/for people that won't even be in her life in the next five years. She changed herself so her boyfriend would like her more. She went from listening to country and hating rap, to listening to rap music, she became interested in alcohol, and watched dumb cartoons that he likes. She stopped asking to hang out, and whenever we did go somewhere, her boyfriend would come along. She changed so much, she started to make fun of me, and say stuff behind my back about me. She became an immature idiot. It really hurt me, to the point I couldn't cope. But, after we went our separate ways, I felt relieved. Now I have no friends to hang out with, but honestly, I would rather have no friends than fake friends. I'd recommend finding new friends, because fake friends aren't worth losing your sanity over. And after a while their two faces get to you, and it can cause you to become mentally ill and physically sick. I hope this helps you, love.

[Vickie]

It sucks when people change who they are for someone that wouldn't do the same for them. But, hey thank you so much for both the review and the advice, it's really made me think about how I'm going to deal with this situation. Oh, and I'm sorry to hear about you having no friends, but I guess as long as you have internet friends you're never truly alone because there is people out there that care(like you for instance) so if you ever need to express your feelings then I'm always here to give, probably really sucky advice, but it's better than nothing aye?

[Mia C.]

It definitely is. You're welcome. I agree. Thank you, and same goes to you. If you ever want to talk or even just vent, I'm just a message away.

[Patricia Hernandez]

Btw. I LOVE the tag!! :) #Friends-F**k-them-all