The Grand Scheme of Things

I tossed and turned laying next to my boyfriend who had no idea why I was so restless. I knew what I wanted to say, but I actually could not put it into words. So I started to write it.

I feel like my mind is too big for the people that surround me

That my thoughts are too deep and bold for the extent of their thoughts

As if my thoughts exceed greater lengths 

than what lies in this house, in this city

That the minds of those around me will never even think

of the ideas and questions that my mind endures and renders

As if the only things that they believe and think of in life

have been staring them in the face for as long as they can remember

I am not saying I am bolder, nor am I greater

but I can see things that I haven't even seen

and know, or think I know things that I have never actually known

To be able to question so many different aspects of life; questions people will never even take the time to grasp

wondering why it ever crossed my mind

I wish they would, because it is incredible

The unknown

The chance of being neither wrong nor right

And the what if's

The feeling that beyond us and what we think is so important

really means nothing in the grand scheme of this thing we call life

Author's Note

I don't like the use of periods, because my thoughts never pause
Capitals are okay
Enjoy

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Don't know how to react to your well laid-out and quite decisive thoughts. Part of me believes you've considered various ths and thats that inspire you to step out of your present dream-world into one filled with academcis who might - just might give you answers or inspire you to read, think and find your own.

OR it might be that being young, you see yourself as more than the unique being each of us is..more a super-human who sits astride thought high in the clouds. Perhaps. Perhaps you could explain more in yet another post at some time..

[KCthelastboyscout]

I'm just assuming here.it sounds like you've outgrown your boyfriend and your surroundings. Wherever you are it's time to fly away and see the world.it's the Luke Skywalker syndrome.you are always looking at the distant future instead of where you are.you wrote this very well.it captured my attention and made me wonder about your decision. Well done.