Ambrosia

My head spins and the image blurs

Once loved features fade and smudge

Till all that’s left is an empty portrait

I reach out for my medicine

The bottle is cool to my touch

Inside I’ll find my smile and hopefully amnesia

It’s all that keeps me going now

I tilt my head back, barely keeping my balance

Cooling flames spill down my throat

Flooding my being they drown my heart

The broken pieces sink to the bottom

Like the little flecks of gold in my drink

It’s all I can do to quell the pain

Every drop soothes me a little more

I can feel the healing touch with every sip

So I continue to quench anger and injury with ambrosia

The faces around me are blurring too

But the bottles empty now

Barely keeping my feet I reach out to steady myself

I listen to first the clink and then the crash

For a moment I’m back in that time and place

When all I cared about vanished as easily as sobriety

All I love falls through my fingers, now, as it did then

On the floor it shatters

Little shards of glass fleck the carpet and sparkle

Like the gems around her neck used to

Memories weigh me down, heavy as lead

I know I’m slipping, unable to stand under the weight

I feel the bliss of oblivion rushing to meet me

For a moment I wish to fight it

But with open arms darkness carries me to the ground

It’s all that welcomes me home now

The only thing that comes to mind as I fall

Is the one thing I’ve learned,

Hearts shatter as easy as glass bottles

When emptied of their joy.

 

 

Reviews

[WildAssociativeLeaps]

"memories weight me down, heavy as lead"
I relate to that completely.

[Angelic Surrender]

This is very deep. Great work.

[Lost.Soul]

Great poem! It is very touching!