With You

As he drives the girl of his dreams home, thoughts rattle in his head.  He thinks of the situation at hand and begins to imagine different outcomes.  In the first, he sees everything going as planned.  He and she fall in love and they run off together and live happily ever after.  Another outcome that he had thought of was if she stops even talking to him because she thinks things had become complicated.  He, then, thinks of his current girlfriend, which causes the thoughts he was having to crash down like a house of glass.

“Oh my God, what if a moment gets created between us and I do something stupid that I would regret,” he thinks to himself.

Acting quickly on his thought, he turns on some fast-paced and edgy music.  He felt relief because the thoughts of infidelity had been quelled thanks to the music and they continued to drive to her house without incident.

            A short while later, he turns into her street and, later, he pulls into her driveway,

“Thank you for the ride, Grant, I really appreciate it.”

“No problem, Alyssa, anytime!’ he says.

            They sat and just carried out with some small talk while still sitting in his car for a short while.  Then, they both became quiet for a moment.  They both looked into each other’s eyes.  Then, they simultaneously begin to lean in closer to each other, all the while the heavy music plays in the background.  Before they knew it, they were kissing each other with great intensity.  Each kiss became more and more passionate than the last.  Unfortunately, it had come to an abrupt end.  Alyssa comes to a sudden realization, pushes Grant away, and says,

“Oh my God…I-I’m so sorry.  I know you are with Sarah…I don’t know what came over me…”

“Don’t apologize, Alyssa.  It was as much me as it was you.  I could have, no should have, stopped you, but I didn’t…”

“Oh my God…I feel so guilty, though…”

“Don’t you worry about it.  It was just a mistake, an accident, it meant nothing…just a momentary lapse of misplaced passion.”

“Y-yeah…”

“So, seriously, don’t worry,” he says in a comforting tone, “we’ll just make it seem as though nothing happened.  I won’t tell Sarah and, then, we both act unchanged around each other.  This doesn’t have to be a big deal.”

“O-okay, good idea, Grant.”

They part ways after agreeing to remain quiet and let it pass over.

            The next day, they do just as they had agreed.  Neither of them mentioned the event and they acted no differently around each other.  Everything seemed to be going perfectly fine.  Unfortunately, though, it didn’t remain perfect.  About a week after the event, Grant and Sarah get into a huge fight over something completely petty, but it was enough to be the tipping point.

“You know what?  I’m so sick of you throwing petty s**t way out of proportion.  We are through!” Grant yells to Sarah.

“Fine!  I was sick of dealing with you too!” Sarah yells as she storms off into her own path.  With the cord now severed, Grant knew exactly what he wanted to do from there.

            A short time after his breakup, Grant goes to find Alyssa with the soul intent on asking her out on a date.  Alas, fate was not on his side in that moment for he sees Alyssa and another guy walking hand in hand together.  Grant had felt like a blade had been impaled into his heart.  Worse than the feeling of heartbreak, he was conflicted.  He was legitimately happy for Alyssa and her new guy because she was happy, but that was the same reason he was upset.  He wished he was the one that was making her happy.  Alyssa and this guy dated for a short while, and seemed to be doing pretty well, until, things weren’t going so well.  She and the guy had a large fight and had split, which brought even more conflicting feelings.  He was happy that she had become available and he had his window again, but on the other side he was upset for her.  He hated to see her so upset.

            About a week and a half and a severe amount of over thinking later, Grant goes to Alyssa’s home late one night and knocks on her door.  When, she comes down and opens the door, she says,

“Grant, what are you doing here so late?”

Then, he says in response without missing a beat,

“Okay, Alyssa, I’m not going to beat around the bush.  After searching through myself, I discovered that I care about you a lot.  I mean, when you are not around, I find myself constantly thinking about you, and when I am around you, it takes an astronomical amount of will power to not grab you, pull you close, and kiss you.  I know, you just got out of a relationship, but I lost my chance last time, I am not going to lose it again.  I want to be the most important part of your life and I want you to be the most important part of my life!  I love you, damn it!”

In response, Alyssa stands still in silence for a moment and an instant feeling of despair fell over Grant.  This feeling doesn’t have too long to take hold of him, though, for Alyssa steps forward, places her arms around Grant’s neck and says,

“Oh thank God…”

She, then, kisses him deeply and he kisses her back, thus marking the beginning of a new and loving relationship.

            Love is a funny thing.  One minute, you may have what you think is your happiness or you will see someone who you want to spend your life with.  Most people cover for fear of rejection by withholding their feelings and never doing anything.  The only time proven method is to take a lead of faith.  Take a chance and in most cases you will find your happiness.  Never despair.  Take the leap.  Take a chance.