love?

wtf

right now im laying down in the rain

thinking of you in the rain

its werid because i hold so many emoitions inside of me and im scared to let them out. scared that i might take something out on the wrong person scared that someone may think im weak scared that someone may say i need help...

the cold rain feels so good on my face the and the night amazingly still shineing with all its wonderful stars.

rains flowing down my warm cheeks its so cold and yet i am so warm.

im just laying here thinking of you.

when suddenly feeling roars inside of me i have no idea what it is ive never felt this way before....its confusing. i feel like just smileing as big as i can and signing and at the same time wanting to cry....wait, cry??

cry!?!? no i refuse i wont!

im laying in the rain wanting to cry but feeling like i want sing, and

thinking of you....

still i wonder about this feeling..this amazing feeling like ive never felt before.

then it hits me................................... i start crying like a baby.....and i realize.....................................im happy.

it feelings so good to cry i feel so..so...so HAPPY!

its weird for like the past 20 mins im laying down in the rain at midnight crying like a baby and smileing and laughing at the same time.

for a second there i thought i was either going crazy or my mom had put something in my soup....

but no im happy and not the type of happy when you just got your first kiss from the person you truly love or just got a new ipod or sk8board....the type of happy where you feel like no..........you CAN take on the world and not give a damn what happens as long as your having the time of your life.................and its amazing...

the dark drouzyness folds over me like a blanket but i dont care...im happy.....im crying like a baby in the rain and it feels so freaken good.