I just want to scream....

As loud as I can, No faultering, no wavering. Just screaming. At everything, everyone. I just want to scream. Names, sounds, anger. All of it. Right into your face. All your faces. So you know whats really tearing me up. I won't, I can't. You never caused me this. You didn't antagonize me. You didn't push me far away. I feel so dark. Like i'm hiding in a unlit closet. Away from the sun. Away from the sky. Away from everything. And yet I can see it all, as it I was behind glass. Maybe thats why I can't scream. Or just maybe thats why you can't hear me. Maybe thats why everything I've always said has just crumpled before me. Unwanted, unheard, unloved. All of it. I can't push it through. I don't have the strength. I never did. I never will. I just can't. I want to, forever and ever. I would fight, and never stop. But I just can't. I just want to scream. At all of you. At you. All my passion, my pain, my everything. I just want to scream.