To be. Or not to be.

I wish I was to be. but i think i'm ot to be. That may be a question but, in the state i'm in, i'm not sure. I wish i was the to be, because your fantastic. You're great, your everything thats a lot of things. I could be the not to be just because it's not time, you're scared or some other reason I can't even fathom at this moment. I don't want to be not to be. I want to be. I want to be everything. I want to be all. I don't want to be nothing. I Don't want not to be nothing, just everythin. I won't ever get that chance me thinks. Perhaps if things pan out to be? Perhaps if things fall in place to be? I can wait to be. I don't want not to be. I can deal with not to be, but it's not to be. How else would I dream to be? I dream to be every night. It's not to be, if I dream to be?  I don't get to be? But then why dream to be? I hatye not to be? because you are to be. You are to be everything maybe? I don't know but i want that chance for it to be. I want that chance to be everything. For you to be everything. Not for you to be scared because of what happened, but for you to be hopeful for what could. I want to be. I don't want not to be. I Want to be me? Me being something to be? I don't know what to be. I just know to b when you're here. You being here makes me to be. I am to be sleeping, but i can't because you're not to be here. I just know i think it's maybe ment to be? Im not sure but I'm giving the chance to be. I don't want the chance not to be. Thats depressing. anyway to be or not to be is nothing but  the wrong question to me. It's to be to me. never not to be.


I hope you can be to be.

And never not to be.