Eternal Tears

I cry because I know 

I am lost and all alone in
the world, my tears are 

not emerald blue or silky 

skies but endless rivers of 

trailing ink and bitter blood 

because the world filled me
with regret and remorse,
stripped down my pride 

and my name my self esteem 

and my love shredded and 

hope for a brighter day 

no more,
but sometimes I can't help 

but smile, let loose a trail of
laughter slip from my lips 

and let the corners of my 
eyes wrinkle with delight
because I can't help but want 

to be happy, I just want to let 
those in the world know, do 

not mistake any form of 

happiness that escape from 

me as true contentedness
or well being because there 

is no way to live life without 

a smile, but there is a way 
to live life sometimes smiling 

amidst the eternal tears.