Back Roads

                Back Roads

I wander the back roads to avoid the crowds,

Not wanting to goad, other voices to be too loud.

I search for complete silence and time spent all alone;

My heart full of vengeance, to weak to ever atone.

I crawl in the crannies, where no one has been;

Hoping to be banned,  from ever going there again.

I live in pure torture, a soul... that only knows pain;

No past or no future, just empty places I have lain.

My mind holds no peace...my heart never is whole.

I  tell my thoughts "cease" , but find no rest for my soul.

Why am I so different, than all the others I have known?

Is there a way to repent, for all the chances I have blown?

I am not completely cold, but something is lacking in me.

My heart is a great hole, no way to fill it that I can see.

Just what am I missing... what is it , I must live without?

I could spend my life guessing, and still be left in doubt.

Never ever finding...complete rest for my mind,

I wander the back roads, a fool wandering around blind.

I seem to seek silence, some precious time spent alone;

My mind full of anger...almost too weak... to go on.

If you travel the back roads, do not end up like me,

Carrying life's heavy load, with eyes too blind to see.

                    Valentine

Author's Note

This was published with one other line.
"May God have mercy on my soul!"

Reviews

[Jed Johnson]

Pain, self loathing, emptiness, all well captured in this write, I truly hope you don't feel this way

[Valentine]

Jed, it is just a write. I get ideas from the news, reading books, listening to what others say etc. I am a Christian and am doing fine. Kathie

[Jed Johnson]

I understand I do the same, most are not autobiographical, but inspired from somewhere else

[Sami Khalil]

"I wander the back roads, a fool wandering around blind.
I seem to seek silence, some precious time spent alone;
My mind full of anger...almost too weak... to go on."

I totally like to do those things too and I can relate immensely.This poem is marvelous...:)................

[Valentine]

Thank you Sami, at times we all might like solace, but permanently...I hope not. My younger sibling brought on the idea for this write. Kathie

[Sami Khalil]

All understood. You are welcome. ...:::))))

[jacob erin-cilberto]

sometimes the road not taken is the one we do travel...but alone and scared, maybe scared that we may find our way, that we may succeed...but with an empty heart---we need hope to ride shotgun..we need that second chance to pick up love, the hitchhiker ...

wonderful allegory here, Kathie...

[Valentine]

Thank you Jacob, I think we all know a few that are just afraid to step out and take a chance. Kathie