A Hummingbird Trying to SwimA Poem by Vianna
What do I have to do to live above the surface?
What must I take from the water to be able to fly? My wild longing beats upon the sea walls I should burn everything in my way, but, if I do, I will become a monster, a being undeserving Freedom is there, but the barrier separates me from it The guards would bring me back to the dungeons if I left The spears they use pierce my limbs so deep, I am chained The darkness blinds me from what I know I see, from what I know exists There is no purpose in the palace, yet I trap what remains of my pride... ...in this broken and cracked sphere of absolute perfectionism and success I am nothing but a scarred demon acting among winged angels who see me for what I truly am Ugliness instead of light, empty space instead of a place, music instead of intelligence The home that is not mine throws me in the rive every day, waiting for me to drown Why do I have to drown? What is that my fate? I try to swim with the sea, but the sea despises me It hates me because I am weak, a piece of dream instead of strength I am hummingbird trying to swim, I think No, the water says, you are a hummingbird fated to drown Whether you drown today, tomorrow, or in a decade will not change your future Everyone knows your fate, as do you, yet you try to survive I can survive for a year or forever, but I can never live for even a second Why is this my fate? Why was I born in the sea, when I should have born in the skies? Because - the guards, the darkness, the angels, and the sea all tell me - you are abandoned by the gods and fate itself I will never belong and I will never be free I can never trust and I can never fly All I can do is swim, only to drown... only to die However, before I die - should I bring with me? They can wait for me in the abyss, but... for what reason? Madness, my dear, insanity, irrationality - whatever one might call it - has no reason
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Added on June 6, 2021 Last Updated on June 6, 2021 |