In Loving Misery

A message to the family that tried to muffle my voice, my spirit, my life, for far to long. To my family whom I have forgiven.

You never made things easy,

I fought for every ounce of "love"

I never had real acceptance,

What you gave me,

Well you will answer to that from the man above.

 

You see I'm writing for me

I'm not living for you

I love in spite

All the anger and turmoil

You instilled in me the will to fight

 

I am a fighter

I fight for good

It took a while to harness

It took a while to hone

All the while searching for my "home"

 

I have always had drive

I've always known strife

I've never been ungreatful

I've never walked away from a fight

 

My life has changed dramatically

I would like to think for the good

Although I cant say its been that bad,

Not since I left Dad's house that night

 

My life has never been boring

Never uneventful

If I were to tell my story,

If I sat you down

You would not have a dry eye

But you see my face

And you call it a lie

 

Thats ok with me

I know me,

I will answer for my life

As you will answer for yours

I saved you a spot

You just never walked through the door

 

Well when I moved on

My lifes "moving van" was full

So I had to make some changes

I couldn't bring your door,

I'm sorry to say

 

You dont have to worry,

You didnt seem to care,

It was always open

It was always there,

I gave you the invite,

I gave you the place

You could have come anytime,

No special requirements need take place

 

So I donated your door to a worthy cause,

I framed it as a lesson

A relic of my childhood,

That need not take precedence

 

Its not that I dont love you

Or that I dont care,

Im afraid its just more healthy

If we simply forgive

And continue our lives from there.

 

It wont be any different,

Which is sad for me

You see all my life

I have only wanted

The love of my Family.

 

It took my Great Grandmothers death

For me to realize

Not all Family is by birth

Most are by the blood of Christ.

 

So I have Forgiven

Each and Every one of you,

I wish you all the Best,

Life and Prosperity,

God Bless

 

Ursula Kay Vos

09/19/2011

 

 

 

Reviews

[Amila Jay]

Great write:)

[Vinod Kumar U K]

Great Write Lovely desire proud divotion and happy wishes are found in it... God Bless You... thanks for sharing the wonderful write.