Do I Dare to Believe?

I've always thought,

"It was all my fault!"

And each night,

I would cry myself to sleep.

 

I truly believed

Everything.

Every word, Every phrase, Every insult,

Coming from YOUR lips.

 

But then,

Something I never expected happened.

And it made me happy,

Just to be with HIM.

 

HE makes me happy,

Beyond all reason.

I don't know what to do with myself.

I couldn't believe it!

 

But why does HE care so much?

Why do I matter?

Because YOU,

YOU say I don't.

 

I trusted YOU,

I believed YOU,

I knew YOU,

But where did that get me?

 

YOU said ,

"It's all your fault!"

And HE said,

"NO,

 

No, it is not.

No matter what,

It was HIS choice"

But who do I believe?

 

YOU are gone.

HE is 10,000 miles away,

But somehow,

I'm not alone.

 

And I'm thinking,

That I never was.

A friend helped me see this,

And a friend YOU were not.

 

So I've come to my decision.

My HIM and YOU will change.

YOU no longer run my life.

And it was never my fault.

Author's Note

BTW, what I mean by the line "My HIM and YOU will change." I mean that the YOU will never be as big a part of my life and decisions as HE will. Most of my new poetry will probably be about HIM rather then falling into the pattern of the past and talking about YOU. and also, when I write about him, it will be with the promoun YOU rather then HIM. Idk if that made sense but that what I meant. Thanks for reading! =^-^=

Reviews

[Adrian K. Smith]

A curious adventure into the interchangeability of persons within our lives, like taking a fresh breath - out with the bad and in with the good - refreshing our lives in the process. The epitome of everything you are, he is not - everything he is, you are not; asking then, why is the you the he and not the he the you - then saying indeed why not, as the you becomes the he and the he becomes the you. Well done...

[Satellite Heart]

I love it! It's so strongly worded with emotion.