I've been gone

I've been away from the writing scene for quite some time now, he only writing I do lately is for witty instagram captions and a few little romantic poems here and there.

I've been gone -
Lost, in a way.
I haven't been feeling,
Just going through the days.

The past has found me,
And the present does not approve,
Of the person that I was,
Or the things I used to do.

I was weak and vulnerable -
Thin, sickly and pale.
I was a disappointment,
And I always would fail.

But now - I'm strong.
I'm better than most men
I have no fear.
I am a god again.

I've sacrificed everyone -
Everyone I know and love,
To get to where I am,
To look down on you from above.

It wasn't worth it,
But I didn't think it would be.
I always knew things would go wrong.
I cast out all that restrained me.

Now, I stand in space,
Cleaning my teeth over a golden sink,
The mirror reflects an unfamiliar face.
But I no longer take the time to think.

It is but I moment a day,
That I doubt myself.
I've made many mistakes,
But I dodged hell.

I'm sorry if I forgot you,
I'm sorry if you missed me.
I'm sorry that it all had to end -
But I needed this beginning.