Mask of confidence

Look in the mirror,

Put on the mask,

The fake mask of confidence,

The mask which is the make up,

People seem to buy it though,

They think i'm confident with what I look like.

 

I can't always keep up with this lie,

I wont be able to put on my mask everyday,

Just for people to think i'm pretty,

I don't even know why i'm trying so hard,

Maybe subconsciously i'm doing it for you,

Or i'm doing it for the attention.

 

They don't know,

The time I spent on making myself look nice,

I have to wake up early to do my make up,

Sleep late to finnish my beauty routine,

They say pain in beauty,

How much more pain do I need to take,

For you to think i'm beautiful?

 

This mask of confidence wont last forever,

I can't let people see me without it,

I need a permenant fix,

I'm ugly without make up,

Cause I look so plain,

People don't wanna see me,

See me without my mask on.

 

As I wipe off my mask,

Tears start to come,

As I see my reflection in the mirror,

I can't help but cry,

Why don't I like myself?

Why am I so ugly?

Why am I fat?

 

These questions repeat in my head,

As I throw my food diary at the mirror,

It smashes, its in pieces,

Like my heart,

I sit alone in this dark room,

Forcibally making myself sick,

Then I cry myself to sleep.

 

I'm not doing this for you,

I'm doing it for me.

 

 

Reviews

[soniix]

[Ashley]

really good, a lot of people feel this way even if they dont realise it. a beautiful piece of writing which brings together many feelings

[Coyote Poetry]

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. No-one look good in the morning. The story was strong and told a story of the desire to always be beautiful. In the morning we all have bad breath and need a shower to awake the body. I like the ending. We need to try to look our best. But when someone care for you. They will love your morning face too. A outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Dream Weaver]

A sad but beautiful write!
Tugged on my heartstrings.