Equal

What did i do to myself?
I knew
this would be bad for me
getting to much involved
making it hard
for me to handle
my feelings
my thoughts

You wanted me to think about it
make sure this is what I wanted
that we both agree
make the decisions together
but why do i feel like
you don’t want this
You want equal
ill give you equal
its not a one way street
its both dear

I know your story
your situation
yet I’m still here
what does that tell you
That i want more than this
that I’m hoping
it will turn in to more
but if it does
is that what I want

Hiding our relationship
hiding my car
my things
and more
How can that be healthy
How can we make it work
Maybe my heart is right
I'm not ready
what did i do to myself?