Hell, Hate and Everything Else

Hell, Hate and Everything Else

 

Who am I supposed to thank?..

I’d say everyone if I wasn’t so confused..

It’s probably my own fault for not realizing..

Realizing any of the s**t That I put myself through..

Not stopping when I knew it was too late..

But that just seems like a sickly excuse I know..

Like the undedicated thoughts of my disgusting mind..

Like the preserving lie that I use to behave anyway I please..

 

Should I thank the wolves whom I once deemed friends?..

Or should I thank the one I dare not name?..

The one who broke me..

Like a children’s toy..

Maybe I should thank g-d for giving me the strength to survive suicides?..

Or maybe I should shut up…….

 

 

I am worthless..

Less than worthless..

A writer who can’t write unless he’s depressed..

 

 

 

Let the ink dry..

Let it be long forgotten..

I deserve nothing more than that..

Why would I even ask for more?..

I don’t exactly wish to be remembered..

Who would even be there to remember me? ..

Old flames and dead friends?..

 

I can’t even find my place here..

 

 

All that’s left is the emotionless shell that I call my soul..

Stronger..

But never strong enough..

 

J.F.

All Hail King Scum

Author's Note

Honesty..

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Hemingway was a Soldier in WW1 and followed WW2 as a reporter. Shute and many great writers lived in hard times. Kosinski survived WW2 as a Jewish child in Poland. Few writers hadn't tasted pain and sweetness often. I tried to do many things in my life. I had many more bad days than good. The good days covered up the sad times.
"Hell, Hate and Everything Else"
I have poetry I can't publish till I'm close to death. My pissed off poetry is stored away. Good to hold anger and be pissed off. It mean we are alive. A powerful poem. Made me think this early morning. Sometime it take one pretty smile and opportunity to change our view of life. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Eva Kjærgaard]

Woaw, this is really emotional... amazing!

[stars are far]

That was brilliant ...
Keep it up

[Mockingbird]

excellent expression of self-loathing and the pain an artist feels. bleak and depressing. a lot of people can relate. great job.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Pain on paper. so real and brilliant yet terribly sad. I can relate, great write.

[Dayran]

The poem flows with an angst that is well supervised into a rhythm of waves that dashes on the rocks and then piles up again for another bash. Its smooth and makes the reader relate to the issues. Quite wonderful.