The Past

Please just f*****g kill me

I can’t see the point in living anymore

Blow my brains all over the f*****g wall

So not even a fading thought remains

 

That’s all I’ve got running through my head

There’s nothing but that heavy desire to die

Clusterfucking all of you on my way out

 

This young man has had enough

Why the f**k should I stand for this

A year has passed since I stopped dating depressed chicks

Another one of my major errors

 

And no heroine

You were not one of them

 

Just feels like I keep getting skullfucked by my past mistakes

 

Yet the devilish gene of forgiveness

Just runs in the family

Just like the good looks and the bad behavior

 

Yeah I sorta blame everything on my mom

My aunts and my grandparents too

Who else could have brought me up to be this monster?

 

Of course I might have something to do with that

 

Or maybe it’s the environment

It could be something with the f*****g abusive classmates

First day in a new school

Get my balls smashed against a flagpole

 

Yet the birds keep singing

Makes me realize that I’ve grown past all of it

I’m stronger in some ways

Weaker in others

 

Yet I stand strong

Take the s**t that I put myself into

And finally when I’m apologetic

When I’m truthful

No one believes me

 

Clusterfucking everything

That’s my behavior in two words

 

And I won’t deny any of it

 

So darling please

Let this handful of pills coupled with half a bottle of gin

Please let it be enough to kill me

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

No happiness in this poem. Just anger and disappointment. I like the strong statements.
"Yet the birds keep singing
Makes me realize that I’ve grown past all of it
I’m stronger in some ways
Weaker in others"
Thank you for the excellent poem.
Coyote

[White_lily]

A bit sad, but a great write :)

[MWoebbe]

A great poem just like all the others, as usual i don't have much to say about it so well thanks for sharing and keep up the good work!

Best regards, MWoebbe

[A Risen Heroine.]

I'm glad to hear I wasn't one of your errors, yet I was depressed, remember?
But I am here for you, message me if you want to.

~A Risen Heroine~

[Secret Lullaby]

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