Letter I'll Never Send

Just some fiction I cooked up after seeing a lady by herself buying chips and shuffling back to her hotel room.

I sit here alone in this spacious hotel room, so empty, ornate. The decor, aesthetically pleasing, but nothing to raise my spirits. A black and white photograph here, a nice duvee there, but I really could care less. My apathy has gotten the best of me.

Eating dinner alone in front of the tv, I methodically open and place my chip bags and soda in front of me, ready for the voyage into mainstream media, a solitary adventurer. My crew abandoned me long ago and my ship nothing short of broken. Misery loves company, but this ship only has it's captain and vice versa. 

Repetitive experiences each night lead me to dread each day that I drag my luggage out to a cab and onto the next airport or hotel, that much farther away from you. Trying to keep you off my mind is no easy chore, but I suppose effort is what counts. 

Please, find some way to make me hate you, despise you even, just so I can get some sleep at night and not bear the monotony of missing you while I stare up at this bland ceiling.

I don't want to cry anymore and I want you off my mind. Though only because I long for sleep, my love. I'll always crave you.

The days go by, and the vision of your gorgeous face never fades, never budges an inch. It remains firmly in my mind and from the looks of it, has no intention of going away.  

I don't know what to beg for, nor do I know what will ease this pain. My sacrifice will most likely be the fact of my love for you lacking the ability to subside, but as long as you  are happy,  I'll battle insomnia and longing until the end of time.

Reviews

[BabyBluee]

woww that was incredible! took my breath away. its so sad, but so true...beautiful write : )

[Pratik]

The pathos of love.. wonderfully written.. Its scary.. the pain one goes through at the failure of a relationship.. You have written a wonderful story that dissects the pain and the grief of a bereaved person..

[K.C. Zbryk]

This characters life is quite sad, but you capture it well and make the reader feel for them. The way that she admits she will never be satisfied without this other person, but she will always go onward is heartbreaking and leaves me to wonder if the person would even see something new and better if they were to stumble across it. But it was very well penned and held me captive for the whole read. Brilliantly penned.

[Chris]

That is one hard "story" to live within...

Damn