2022 winter observations and meditations

Reliability is hard to find since most of us don't have it in us to be.

While there is comfort amongst friends, much of it is banded by commodity, and even less than that, conveniency for fun.

Where unity lies I do not know since I've seen friends come and go, and none held to me for the sake of wisdom, or a pursuit of truth and honor.

People are more complex than what they seem, but this generation doesn't care about anything than a lofty sense of what is at the seems.

I used to be like you and still am but I found what it means to be honest I guess.
It sears the soul of all impurities since discernment, some judgement, and precaution must be used when looking in the mirror

Not to judge oneself too harshly but judge oneself just right.

Of course my words are fallible since I could be looking up to myself or someone else as though that could ever be
and yes even I go about my way as though cleverly.

Yes, I love life and what will I do when I have it, and have disdain for those who have less
What will I do with my wrath when I put the charge as though life has been unfair to me.
He without sin cast the first stone but the bottom has fell out on how many should be thrown.
This is how I feel, whether its a clever ruse put about me, I do not know.

no one loves me, no one loves me, story of some peoples lives.

yet all would worship their ego if all wasn't done away with because of it.

Diligently careful not to cause the cascade that all follow after in their wreckless pursuits and abandon.
Indulgences.. and
karma, if there is such a thing
once I've known it to be true.

Where forgiveness comes from and with a tempered mind if one looks closely enough, is forgiveness needed?

I cannot pay my debts and dues, I do not desire to go into chains as a slave at slave wages which is to be owned forever.

Although we deny we get angry at God sometimes, it is not His fault nor mine, nor anyone I know personally as to why this is.
and I simply cannot enter into the vitriol anymore.

I was a wise child in a unwise generation, my only mistake was listening to the endless dialogues of complacency
If I had a second it would be to follow the path of vitriol into revolution
if I had a third, it would be having written this at all, if it were a mistake at all.

Let me know when I can raise my hand in honor without rhetoric
how much dog piling can you fit into a lobby after all.

In this day and age after having thought it through, what do I desire, I don't know, I have not a clue.
a love of wisdom as one thing leads to another, what do I desire
I have not a clue.

Some peace, rest, and trees without a catch twenty two
God Bless, Thank You.
Amen, and amen