Good Grief

music, 

a privilege.
when merit and taken notice
A badge of honor 
 worn far from its relevance
I forgot about these rough edges of a diamond

still washing in these rocks,

 ___ escape when the expression echoes

the outbursts and forshadowing,

 of ways I should let go.

 listen so it listens to me
my shadow

happy to be close
to somthing alive,
posture change
 to match eyes 
to meet standing in a milestone
spontanious like

 a rite of passage takes place
mind to makes sense of it and my summer needs aren't a waste
token of what I made a big deal of,

 everyone made the grade, I can too.
not looking at the test scores or even open the envelope

 when they look at you, like the meaning
meant anything when the moment
is less than the word describing how it is to experience something less and less than you wanted to 
Don't tell me life is a game. I play all alone.

Smile because I'm just and not a wolf.
  To close the doors behind.  More excited about a time and place where its alright
To covet and condone. I'm sure I don't. wolf.

Holding defining words to an easy role to play, the script to such happy moments lacking the sentiment of sincerity,
 a misunderstanding ceased and fell to the wayside of chatter.

 black shades utter.  
the common places that come and place things that were once common place. My common sense needs to periodicly evaluate
cuz annihilation turns out is around and far away. I can lie too. and its appearance.
 Make sure, its spuratic behavior reliablity is not within lauging margin of being crackheaded
a squirrel, doe, rabbit,  hamster. Gerbil Membership Based Points AccumuSimulator. 
Someone else needs too speak instead of me on behalf of signed, or contractually agreed pre-planned product professional.
or any that emphazise video or has a good man layman budget. Cuz god knows you don't let your children see.
  Make sure they're not paper cut outs and stick figure drawings, I randomly stuck a picture of someone
and thought it would hold together as a rational, convincing tap on the shoulder, I'd been attempting to find someway, to lean on what can only be marked up to
 the walls crossing their arms, shaking their head, with an unshakable stance on no
chest of bricks has its head shaking no, eyes closed, and chest out to give me a first glimpse, and first taste, a first time what its like to be said "No".
and my self-dilemmas, and self rapture discovery
feels the offense of no, being powerless, helpless to be man's continuous humming bird wing licking, every shade in which the eye
 hides to make
 a unique, eventful story of unsure decisions, thoughts that look to keep up with actions
if I look,!? Wrong.

activities in this city, uninteresting.
when does the unprecedented, welcomed plot summary rediscover meaning as a prompt to make a healing and head for well as
a charlie brown character.