Never Ending Thirds

Once I was

 able to sing a sound that clears it all
my disbelief

from fainting

and after all I didn't faint

That fall and seasons had

there meaning

all there was

Needs met and the clothes I'd wear

exchanged what I had

I would have

I cared

heavy lifting turned to a feather

My doubts faded and I was

That I'd be

I prepared

the next moment came

And it came with my help

Didn't need to say where I

would be

or the effort of splitting hairs

missing the point of what was worth

better talents never learned

What was make believe

Here it mattered not

following what I believe

Took but the movement of air

and the time lost learning

mistakes

my life became clear

The reasons for what I acted

upon

forwarded the purpose for

a life that appeared

nothing I'd steal

something I valued

I emptied my hand

now searching for what I could

call a home and a home cooked meal

No inconvenience of being a salesman

Didn't need the spial

And turned it around

What I had sewed

mattered hot or cold

I couldn't walk away

To that past

steadfast it was the end of the

road.

I gave myself the certainty that

I've arrived at the destination of

my choosing.

mine, no longer what it was.

No longer the curiosity of

except that

shined under the sun.

could make better time of living

under a rock.

The answers to why I'm so

dissatisfied.

bigger, better, greater

the concepts of not enough

I fit the perpective of care

THat I wanted to recieve

non existant till that what I chose

I chose it for me

seas but a drop of water next to

the puddels of mud in

reflection

looking at the skies that are

blue

clear water seen at a distance.

waters moved and in its beauty

I found the words

For this,, his reminder can be

written.

the memory of hurt feeling as

they echoed, stood still

They didn't wake up as they

brushed past and instead

forgotten

The dream knocked off course

no longer faultered to take

flight and wasn't chased away.

I chose the rest of sleep

instead of words that bothered me

distracted the world outside of me

I didn't cave in

chasing after the weather

putting together the peices

of something else other han

disasters

the peak of the moment I did find

an adventure in something other than

unmeasured chaos

I'm not even in the midst and to surviive

searching for meaning, alive

yet to experience the moment

of not remembering whats

left behind

and be driven to walk past

without noticing bad signs

proven. matter not a dime

to afford. self assued, in security

of the word

affirmation for me, not ther anymore

no eyes of a dog running wild

waters only a surfer could see

after images of light unexplored

completely disappears of what

I adored

replacement for what broken

and yet its found its purpose

echoes of whats been hur,

simply makes anew sound

when reaches reverb

contrast at last has nothing to

do with pictures

the aesthetic of dirt

mind travels what its worth

no hiding behind a face,

self observed

no longer keeping track of first

inline with the rhyme

of obnoxious outbursts.

Move where I'm going when

reminded of my thirst?

glad to know, fading further, a

place obscure

let go of a night prove

what will over a acurse

appreciating a day in the life

able to enjoy, a price,

didn't realize and out went the lights.

something I didn't mean to be

sarcastic

nice.