I miss you

again me and my girl autumn werent together

With this absents of time
All I know it that I miss you
When I'm high I miss you
When I'm low I miss you
All I f****n ever know is tat I will miss you
It's the only thing I'm ever sure of

But I cant miss you
Because missing you hurts and I know I'll never get you back
I know we can never have what we had
I know if we try and go back it will never work
But I still miss you
I cant get you off my mind
Ever
And if someone is always on ur mind then they were suppose to be there right?
Well if your never on there's then what do you do
Vanish as I had proclaimed?
But I'll just keep missing you
Make myself available for my self inflicting pain
More pain that doesn't need to be there
More lies
More bullshit
No
No more tears
No
I can't handle it
More weed less thinking
More partying less missing
More fun less sad
More acting less real

That is what I need
But this is not the slam that I know in my mending heart is true
This is not the slam I've been cravin to write
This is all a lie
But why
Why waste my time?
Because I just need to cover myself in a false reality so that the real one doesn't exist
Because the real one hurts
Ya so "lifes a b***h"
But I can make it mine
Mine.
Mine as in me?
Yes.
But who's me?
I dont know.
When I look in the mirror
I see nothing
I see a ghost
I see lies
I don't like what I see
But I ain't gana do s**t about it
Besides smoke more weed and run from my problems
Like a little b***h
Like the little b***h life is
The little b***h lifes made me
The little b***h I've let my self become by missing you

F**k
My
Life
I miss you autumn