Duces Pops

me and my dad dont have such a good relationship.

I don't want him
I don't need him
He won't leave me alone!!!

How do you tell someone who won't leave you the f**k alone to leave you the f**k alone?
Now how do you do it when it's your father

The man who can't keep his dick in his pants
The man who made you feel like s**t because of your sexuality
The man who chases after you like a mad dog when something big happens but when nothin happens you could be road kill

How do you tell your dad
That your not his lil girl anymore
When you've always been a "daddy's girl"
When you always saw your self as a girl
...but now
Now the lines aren't so clear

It's just one more thing for him to hate me for
I act and pretend like I could care less that he treats me how he does
But its like ether be in my life 100%
or be out of my life 100%
don't try and do this half way s**t
I just set expectations when i know you'll never meet
When I hope and dream you'll be on the side line cheering for me
But won't tell you when my games are because I know you won't show
I invite you to my shows but all you do is judge
Judge me
My girlfriend
My life
My sexuality
My gender
Judge everything that makes me me
And I can't handle it
I can't talk to someone who treats me the way you do
Your unspoken words of judgement haterid and love
All you are are unspoken words and misguieded actions
And high hopes
letting a lil girl crash to a plummeting death of the knowledge that the man she once called daddy
The man she once screamed for
The man she once pleaded for
The man she once yearned for
Is gone.

Because now she is grown
Because she is independent and doesnt need you
But most of all because she is no longer the lil girl
Because she's no longer a she nor he

I am who i am
I have no gender
I have no hopes for that man s**t who broke many a girls hearts
I have no more tears to shed over the loss of a father
The lost of a hero to be
I have nothing more to say
Nothing more to express
Nothing more to beg
Or plead for
I need nothing from him
Because he had his chance

His chance to be the only hero in my eyes
To be the father I've always wanted
To be caring
Loving
Considerate
His chance to be a true father
To care for me like my coaches did
To be at my games
On time
To come to all my shows
To invite me to his wedding

Not all this guilt tripping
Not all this negative emotions
Not all this unmet expectations
Not the crushed dreams of a young child

I am strong
In who I am
In who I'm with
In my life
I have a strong base
And I don't need him breaking it down
I don't want him and his bull s**t
He needs to leave me alone!!