TemptationA Poem by TwoDaysTooLateOriginally a piece of spoken word.When I was four, I was brave. I was a loud, outspoken child who believed that she could save anyone with her toy doll doctor skills. She lived for the thrills of parks and trips with mom and dad to places unseen. She had no fears and shed no tears for she was clever and didn't have to worry about being bottom of the class. She grew as a person, like a blade of uncut grass who wanted to change the world. And no one could stop her. From age seven to age eleven, her world was polluted by a convoluted girl who was stick thin, manipulative and one of the biggest b*****s to ever live. She bullied her into insecurities, worries and moralities because chubby would not cut it. The 'f' word became a big part of her life, although it had a worse meaning than 'f**k', 'f****t' or 'freak', though the latter was commonly used. F stood for F A T. This three letter word caused her more pain than any four, five or six letter words. It labelled her in a category she shouldn't have been in. It gave her a reason to catch a ride on the nearest downwards spiral which would land her on a grey, dirty sofa in a council therapy office. In her early teens she was both D I A G N O S E D and G I V I N G U P . She gave up hope and succumbed to her pain. temptation. Temptation. TEMPTATION. She gave in to the temptation of pain removal by causing the world around her pain. She held on to her past whilst severing her future and preparing herself for whatever else was going to come her way. The sharp knife of hope carved the skin of the past. It bled pain and agony, and release. The plaster sealed her, pain and agony free. The scars remind her of where she released pain. Now her arms are tattooed with reminders of a past that couldn't have left fast enough. A family torn apart by a death of a person physically and another mentally. She wanted to make it all go away. Relieve others of her burden. September 20th 2016. That was meant to be engraved on her headstone. As she prepared to journey for the final time, a simple message from someone she'd never met saved her. That's how a stranger saved her life. The stranger intrigued her, but also made her feel loved. And since, she hasn't succumbed to the temptation of the journey. This is a message to all those people who grew up surrounded by temptation. Who were always deemed as overreacting. Who have succumbed, who are planning to. Or who feel they will. You are not alone. Although society has a way of condemning the weak, it has survived thus far. Because there are enough similar people to keep the world going around The scars are a mark of bravery, not silliness or stupidity. The pain is not subjective, it is seemingly everlasting. Don't be afraid, someone will save you. I know this is hard to believe and fathom but there is definitely someone. Even me. I was saved by a stranger. And now I'll save you.
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1 Review Added on May 22, 2017 Last Updated on May 22, 2017 AuthorTwoDaysTooLateCrimson Peak, Rain Streaked Glass, United KingdomAboutSo, I'm 16, and people underestimate me. I've not really shared my writing before, other than with my various English teachers, because I've been unsure of whether I'll be accepted, whether my wri.. more..Writing
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