Journey

Its hard to find the truth sometimes, when lifes a stupid bore
Its hard for me to walk my path when I’m treated like a w***e
Sometimes I fall off the wagon and pick myself up again
Its always the same routine I wish it would just end
I never really know what to do, I never really know what to say
Lost, alone in this world of s**t there’s got to be a better way
The things I was taught when I was young, turns out its all a lie
Its getting harder everyday and I don’t know why I even try every little something new just kills a piece inside
Hang me with my entrails already im sure id rather die
I never really know how to cope, I never really know who to blame
Sitting evaluating past excuses, you realize this ain’t no game
Why do I always beat myself up, thinking the grass is greener on the otherside
But then I go and hop the fence and see the grass was just another lie
keep on looking keep on searching for thee and always wonder why
I can’t find my happiness it feels like a curse, this f****n life
I never really know the perfect time, I never really know the perfect place
To just f*****g end this life, cuz I feel like such a waste
I keep on wishing keep on hoping it’ll change
Keep looking for a ray of sunshine on the range
Don’t even care for myself, its probably why i look so strange
Tired tired oh so very tired of running from this danger
Don’t really know how to want for more, don’t really know how to make that happen
I should grab another case, another thing to put my crap in
it gets a little easier, seeing through all the lies
There it is that ray of light, and its right before my eyes
Its that new thing in my life that I could never despise
With it I can walk upright, hiding now would be unwise
Now I really know what I want, now I know how to get there
As long as this lights in my life, everything else I just couldn’t care
There is always something better, something greats in store for me
The light oh it made me realize, just what kind of person I could be
Even when I’m in the shadows, I just close my eyes and count to three
I always want it in my life, it makes it so much easier to see
I really think I can get through this, I really think I can make it on my own
why would I ever want that now, with everything that the light has shown
Always strong enough to pull through, I know its all because of you
Blinding light chase away the darkness, without it don’t know what id do
Now I’m ready for all life offers, ready to stand up and see right through
Independent not a bit confused, because now I know exactly what’s true
I can finally do what I’ve wanted to for years
No more sitting around and no time for tears
Life gave me lemons I made lemonade
you gave me iron so I forged a blade
Now I got a weapon for eternity
now all I want is for you to be
I’m a big boy and you made it easy for me
To make these changes, i hope you can see