Why We Should Be

A Chapter by Ari

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I turn my phone off. I start to swing when the swings stop. Mr. Depp: Erica. He says in such a humble low voice that it makes me tickle from my ear to my feet. Erica: What? I say irritated. He spins the swing around facing me and squats down to look me in the eye. Mr. Depp: I haven't been able to think straight or... or even write anymore. I- I can't eat or sleep, I can't do anything without you. Now look I'm sorry that I didn't tell you everything before, but I will from now on, I promise I will. I'll tell you everything and I'll communicate with you, I'll do what ever it takes. I look down. He yanks my face to make eye contact with me. Mr. Depp: What ever it takes... and I know that you're the type of person that once when you lose their trust it can't be gained back but I'm gonna try. I'm gonna try my best.

Erica: I don't know if I can just up and believe. Mr. Depp: Believe baby, please.... Let me tell you something that I've never told anyone before. I use to have a dream everyday of my life since I was four that I was drowning which made me afraid of water and all of a sudden some woman saved me except I was never able to see her face. Then, later on we got married but before I could lift her veil to see her face I'd wake up. The first day I saw you, I kept thinking about you and when I dream, the face became clear. You were the one who saved me from drowning. You are the one I marry. Erica I love you.

He has this look in his eye, like he's amazed at those three words. He looks at me again and says: I love you. In a whispering voice. I can tell this is his first time saying he loves someone, I can feel it. I want to believe him, but I'm so lost. I'm in shock. He grabs my hands and holds them so tightly, like he's never going to let go and I like it. He kisses my hands and keeps kissing and I unwillingly smile. My lips become enraged with wanting to mix passion with Johnny's. Erica: Ok... I'll try. Johnny kisses me and says: Thank you love, thank you, I'm never going to let you go. Erica: Lets.. to your house. Johnny: Sure thing. He takes my hand and walks me to my car. Johnny: Just follow me ok. I nod.

-Later-

We're laying in his backyard, catching up on life. It's like we were best friends that went away from each other but came back even stronger. I sit up and just stare down. He gets up too. Johnny: What's wrong? Erica: I just... I look at him and I start to tear up. I look away and begin to silently cry. Johnny rubs my back and hugs me. Johnny: What? He says softly. Erica: I just, don't want to get hurt. I don't want everything to be in vain, I just, want to love freely. I look at him again. He holds my hand while saying: If you let go you will and if you fall I'll catch you. Always.

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