Two Steps Back

I wanted to lose my fear of

“the new”

But that would be something

“new”

and that would not do.

Innovation excites

when it is presented

as

“option”

but creates panic

when it becomes

“required”

If I can find a way for all of

“the new”

to be broadcast unto me

as an upgrade

or an option

to my life-system

then I will hug these changes

like I do my comfort pillow

in the middle of a chilly night.

Instead they come as prerequisites

to a life I already was comfortable with

and did not want changed

or altered

or modified.

Sadly life has been bending my route

for four decades

and I have never found a way

to reconcile my comfort with the way it was

with the fact that it only “was”

because it once had been

something else

and I had forgotten

getting used

to that change

once before.