This Pain

My life feels like a derailed train

far from reality and close to insane

I look to the future but I don't see the light

all the choices I make are always wrong never right

I conjure up evil thoughts in my head

as I lie awake unable to sleep in my bed

what can I do to make the voices go away?

so I can open my eyes to see another day

this pain I've lived with for so long

this pain tells me I can't go on

this pain I've lived with for so long

this pain tells me I can't go on

I sit in silence knife in hand

these feelings and emotions I can no longer stand

the burning sensation starts to set in

as the blade cuts deeper into my skin

I try to stop but this will not be

my mind has lost all control of me

desire so intense it has turned into hate

there is nothing I can do, now it's too late

this pain I've lived with for so long

this pain tells me I can't go on

this pain I've lived with for so long

this pain tells me I can't go on

the blood drips down and falls to the floor

as my entire arm begins to feel sore

I clench my fist with a smile on my face

never could I imagine it would feel this great

I look at the wound, I am almost done

all that's left is the final cut

I will put an end to all my misery

with just one more swipe and at last be free

this pain I've lived with for so long

this pain tells me I can't go on

this pain I've lived with for so long

this pain tells me I can't go on

it brings me misery

won't ever let me be

but now I'm free

now I'm free

from this pain.