A Father That Says He Cares.

I'm left in deep thought as my father says that he loves me

As he calls me a girl , A Poof and gay

I'm left to fend on my own , Trying to hide the feelings of my past

As they dig deep into my heart , I blame him for the fights

I blame him for me not knowing my mother aswell as i should have

I'm left to complicate the facts that this pain , This anger is eating me up

The memories that haunt me , That night when my parents had another fight

I was only 7 years old having to get used to living with a person i choosed not to stay with

This is my life, A fucked up disaster

I try my best to impress but it's never enough

Turned to dope , smokes and alc

At the age of 7 i was fucked for life.

Skiped school , classes , was to depressed to live with my life

Left outside on the footstep class , Trying to keep the tears in

Trying to hide everything that was eating me up

And now i know i can't go back

Because i fucked up my education.

Reviews

[Jemma]

F*****g hell I can relate. I recon you already know how. We can't chose the family we have and been so young we could never of gotten away from them. You know I can not only relate to that side but also to the other things like skipping classes and turning to addictions like smoking. Lighting a joint and finding comfort in that. And i relize now more then ever I fucked up my life. I never let out my emotions and now look were i am. A fucked up family. Barely any friends. No education and no grip on the futur. And although I would say I only have myself to blame. Its a lie. I blame my father.

F*****g love this and love ya. xx

[B A S S E M A S H R A F]

i am so depressed you realy forced me to read it till the end

it was so sad ......

you are a very good writer :D

i wish you read mine :D

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