Substance Abuse

My heart feels heavy
I feel like
All my blood has drained
From me .
Suicidal thoughts
S***s crazy
Why do people
Say I'll be there for
You if they weren't
Planning on being there
For me.
Just leave you trapped in
The Dark looking like a stupid fool,
Like damn I got played out the a*s Dude .
I'm trying to stay humble
So I smoke a few doobs.
Smoking the pain away
That's what I'm used too
Ever got hurt so much
Til crying was old news
Get it ?

Crying is old news
So I try to mend my mind
With rough sex & cartoons
Yea I know everyone's been lied to.
Which makes me no different from you
But you haven't walked a mile
In my shoes .
If you did you'd feel the way I do .
Don't judge me because
of what the next b***h told you
There just lies.
But you believed them
Just Like the last fool
Am I right boo?
People spend all their life
Trying to fit in.
Wake up .

Can't you see society is
Controlling you ?
You spend all your time
Trying to please it.
When in reality
Society really hates you .
But don't listen to me.
I'm just a poet breaking
Rules .
With a wise mind
Nobody listens to.
After reading this
Your still going to do you
Who am I to stop you .

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A lot of thoughts and places in this poem.
"Can't you see society is
Controlling you ? "
I believe we can be caged and not know it. Life, drug and self-made prisons. Easy to fall into. I like the flow of thoughts leading to the logical ending. Can't change someone. They must change themselves. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Adreamer's Bluejay]

I love the feeling this piece gives and I think that that the way you penned it it is about so much more than your own pain. It's more about showing people you know their pain and you have the solution (found in the last stanza clearly, beautifully). But then I read it again and it does feel like your own pain, your own story it's just something honest and deep and more than you can handle. I'm so sorry for whatever inspired this. Really, I am.

However it is still phenomenally penned and I love the way your voice decided to shine here in it's own kind of grim light

[Gummy.G]

You got this tightoped in a bag. Your not the only one being fucked over by this life.
This is driven with some force and power. Just wanting to get out and be.

[Ghost]

I listened to you lexi, I actually get you. Would give you one hella hug if I could see you now

[Alexis]

thank you . (:

[Alexis]

virtual hug . (:

[Ghost]

Lol virtual hug back