Canvas of Change

An old poem that I yanked from my Facebook page.

Canvas of Change

 

 

Cooler days and colored leaves,

Showing off their brillianceー

They signify fall's return.

My favorite season, 

Once aesthetically pleasing--

It now brings powerful and

Painful ambiguity.

While I want to focus 

On those dearest,

Pressures to succeed 

Have outweighed the 

Clarity that friends bring.

Relationships torn and anxiety abound,

They fog my rationality.

Soon,it will all end.

Those cared for will be 

Left behind.

In life,

There is no rewind,

So everything must count 

The first time.  

More people have been hurt

In the span of one short week

Than I ever care to see.

My own brush,

Has painted this canvas a sickly grey, 

It's my hideous creation.

It conveys what I already know.

Death, love, and loss are always certain.

Soon my world will change,

My head spins at the possibilities.

I don't want to leave this place,

But this is no longer my home.

I've yet to find it.  

Author's Note

Comment, Review, and tell me what you think.

Reviews

[DaturaBlossoms]

Good imagery at the beginning and a good strong finish.

[D.E. Ball]

Thank you for the comment!

This poem is the culmination of experiences and feelings I had in my senior year of college. I was under a lot of pressure to finish school in four years, so I shut a lot of people out of my life. As a result, I lost a few friends.

In just one week, I broke up with a girlfriend; my grandfather was hospitalized; and his brother lost a hard-fought battle with cancer. It was a pretty trying time for me.

My colors changed like leaves in fall, and some parts of me fell to the ground.

[durrya]

Death, love, and loss are always certain.

true that!

I don't want to leave this place,
But this is no longer my home.
I've yet to find it.

Go on ! traveler .

I like!

[D.E. Ball]

Thanks for reading and commenting! I wrote this a few years ago, before I finished university, and now I am experiencing some of the same feelings that I had when I wrote it. In a few months, I will leave Japan, my temporary home of the last year and a half. I'm not entirely sure of what to do, of where to go, but I'll figure something out. :)

Not looking forward to the goodbyes. :'(

[durrya]

I see, Goodbyes are really painful, but you have to move forward, for your betterment.
May you always get what you want.

and thanks for this beautiful share. :)

[D.E. Ball]

Thanks for reading, and the advice. :)

[durrya]

you are welcome! :)