When It Comes To Me...

A Poem by Touch & Play

The heavy feelings in the deep down my heart.

It's the heart which is longing and making the mind desperate
Standing at the edge, a mode of transition,
doubting self... will it happen or will it not...
why when it comes to me.... doubt comes along...

it is so different if it was some professional challenge..
i am so sure to challenge it all by myself and
know very confidently that i can make it happen
if the need is of one dear to me, also i am sure
i can make it happen for their happiness...
but when it comes to me... why doubt comes along...

my mind is repeatedly questioning
what is that you are desiring for -
is it friendship?
is it companionship?
is it relationship?
is it someone who has all ears of you?
is it for talking buddy?
is it for sharing buddy?
what is that you are longing for baby??
no clarity comes to my mind...
and that is why when it comes to me.. doubt comes along...

my mind also says -
you come with such a big baggage of your past and responsibilities...
what is that you want from the present is so unclear to you...
what is your way ahead has also no clarity...
but still my heart is longing..
and that is why when it comes to me... doubt comes along...

luv u baby... missing you a lot...