She's numb.

For a sister who just went..to far.

When we were young..believe it or not I looked up to you.
For your strength,
For the fact that on your worst days..you kept going.
We never really got along..
We never really bonded..
We never seemed to have love for one another..
You were dark.
I was light.
You were negative.
I was positive.
I believed in things.
You believed in nothing.
Even so?
I loved you.
As of today?
You crossed a line..
Used my daughter's name in vain
Seeming to put a curse on her little life.
You claim to have no mother.
I claim you to have no sister.
You were wrong, so wrong.
My tears burned as I write my story.
Continuing my story with out your name..
With out the pain you brought,
With out the very essence of the neglect that you put on me for years..
Making me feel as if I WAS the one who turned your life upside down,
To blame me FOR your problems ,
to WISH I was never born,
Well you got your wish.
You will live a life with out me,
You will live a life with out a niece,
You will live your life with out me as family.
I forgive you,
For if I was not to forgive you?
I'd suffer my whole life.
Hanging on to every word you have ever said.
While you close your selfish eyes at night in piece,
I regret things that may have been said.
I do not regret writing you out.
For you brought this upon yourself.
I am tired of fighting a fight I will never win.
This is my good bye.
This on the other hand is my wish..
I wish you well..and I wish you happiness.
I wish that you could have seen the pain you put me through, with me saying good bye..just so you could sit back and actually feel something.
I guess that's the wish..
For you to feel.