Dear Anxiety

This was a very personal note I wrote to myself when my mental health crippled me. I wrote it in order to look back and remind myself that no matter how dark some days get there is always hope.

Dear anxiety.

Ever since that day you first shown Yourself to me I have never fully recovered. Everyday I sense you looming in me somewhere. Whether it's the slight tingles in my fingers and toes or the feeling of dread and worthlessness. Usually it's the dizziness and light headedness that you tend to prefer. I don't understand why you are so crippling. Why are you here? I am you and you are me. You may feel like your winning but by beating me your only damaging yourself. I wish to stop fighting with you and for us to work together. You've taught me so much about myself and our abilities as people. I never imagined that I had the capability to heighten my senses so much or that my mind can be so fragile but also so strong. There were so many things I took for granted that I wish to enjoy again, and this time I will enjoy them. I don't want you to go, or leave me forever. I only wish for you to allow me to take back control over situations that you have no business participating in. I need to be able to trust you, to welcome you and respect you. Please hear me and help me.