Neglected Masochist

We all have different ways to express and receive love.

You say that you adore me, but I don't understand
Instead of fists you touch me with the gentlest of hands

Each stroke and pet so delicate, I suffer suffocation
Please choke out tears that spell my love, enforce humiliation

I crave your loving touch in ways I doubt you comprehend
How is it true affection if your nails don't break the skin?

Sweet nothings make me nauseous, offer promises of pain
True intimacy scares me, love, I'd rather take the cane