Cast the first

free verse - Warning - deals with suicide

They line up

With their stones

I am buried 

to my chest

in their disdain

I don't fear 

this death.

Together

professionals

friends 

family 

start hurling

their

'accusations'.

As my lights

dim

under the 

barrage

My main thought is

- how

can I be accused 

of 

'trying to end my life'?

'

'

~ to me~

it never 

began.

Reviews

[Troubled Robin]

"how can I be accused of trying to end my life? to me it never began."
Holy crap, that got me. This is so painfully accurate. Applause.

[Farah Husain]

A very powerful poem especially the ending. I like the imagery of being buried as it evokes a feeling of true suffocation.

[Michael S]

Greatly penned Tony
When mind is not sane, how can we analyze it whether it is right or wrong. No one has the right to blame such people who goes through such phase of life. Staying sane is a bliss and to be able to fight out suicidal tendencies and depression is an achievement in itself. This is a great insightful piece of work.
A free verse written very impact-fully. Loved everything about this writing.
Keep it up.

[Willard Wells]

Interesting and yes it is curious when you are under stress and the help often does more harm than good.

[Tony Jordan]

Sometimes help only constructs another copse of trees in front of the forest Will, you're right my friend. I appreciate your thoughts on this one, thank you.

[Shorty28]

Wow I can relate to this, i love it :)

[Tony Jordan]

Two things Shorty.
First, I'm sorry you can relate (if you catch my drift).
Second, I'm glad that you love this piece.
Thanks for reviewing.

[Shorty28]

Thank you :) i love piece like this :) your welcome

[Lydia Shutter]

Heartbreakingly sad subject. I lost a very close friend to suicide and I don't think I will ever get over it. There is always a reason to live...a reason to fight the demons. LydI**

[Tony Jordan]

I'm sorry that you experienced that Lydia. (hugs)
It leaves so many questions.
Thankfully I came out alive and I agree 100%.
x

[Lovecraft]

Beautifully dark and sad in its theme. Weirdly enough I really tend to enjoy the dark themes in this poem. I've just always been drawn to the darker side of human nature and its effects and repercussions.

Very well done, Moon Face! ;)

[Tony Jordan]

That's quite alright Lovecraft.
I appreciate your visit on this one, and anything I write. Thank you my friend :))

[Lovecraft]

Well, I know I am a little strange, but then again I think everyone is in their own unique way. ;)

[Tony Jordan]

I agree 100% my friend.

[V]

I think it might perfectly reflect the ongoings of someone's brain who feels overwhelmed by this world. I said might on purpose because who am I to dare to know, because I never felt as desperate and rolled over by all of it. I can relate though to a feeling of non-belonging. Simply expressed yet goes deep.

[Tony Jordan]

Wow - it just goes to show, never judge a book Βανέ. I had you pegged for a outgoing and popular woman - I couldn't have seen you not belonging anywhere. You certainly 'belong' here. You're very well liked and respected (from my limited observations of the Live feed).
Anyways..I digress ...
What I meant to say was the feelings that lead to this took years and years to build and suppress - I guess like a clamshell does to grit and forms the pearl - only my pearl was made of TNT - lol.
Thank you very much for your review Βανέ.

[V]

We're more broken inside then it's shown on the surface.
I guess it's often like this, building up until it breaks out. Thank you for your nice words and words on your writing. Appreciated.

[Tony Jordan]

So true...
Welcome :)

[Great Aunt Astri]

This poem is crying out to be heard. Well done for writing it,

[Tony Jordan]

If you think that Aunt Astri then I promise i will read it one day at the local suicide awareness group.
Thank you very much for your kind words.

[Einstein Noodle]

wow! i am struck to muted silence .. powerful powerful powerful poem ..the turn is brilliant says i! something we all need to hear ...whether suicide has touched us personally or not ..well done ..should be published says i!
E.

[Tony Jordan]

Thank you E!
I appreciate your words.
:)