Pain As Well As Desire

It's crucial for you to know

That I love you, i still love you

Through all this pain we've been.

There's someone else calling me baby

But wish he was you, so sometimes

I pretend. Why can't your name

Be his? I pine for your love, though

Your anger with me replaces your love.

It drives me crazy knowing when you wish

I were disinigrated to ashes, when I wish

To rest in your embrace forever.

I'm in love with you, the man who hates me.

The man who's hurt me more than anyone

Else has. Why do I crave your love? It's

Like craving to be engulfed in terminal flames

As my body melts in agony. I long for it.

I need you, I want your angry eyes, your

Harsh words. As long as I'm around you,

I'm in pain. But I love it because it's you.

Touch me and I'll be singed with pain

As well as desire. It's also hard to believe

We were once a fairytale love, with perfect

Happiness and serenity. But now it's all

Hate and anger ad loneliness and deprivation

Of the love we once shared. What I wouldn't

Give to touch your hand, kiss your cheek

Feel your arms wrapped around mine.

Knowing that it's the impossible chills

My spine, beats a dull thud on my heart.

I crave you behind these blank eyes of mine.

Don't ever go away, for then I shall truly

Be a prisoner of sorrow, even more so

Than I already am.