Nothing but Love

A little poem I formulated from journaling one night. I thought If I edited it and put in time to make it better, it could be something more powerful. I also really wanted to share it for others.

I miss you. 

Or maybe just the idea of you. 

How you made me feel loved when I didn’t know what that felt like. 

I still think about you, even though you probably aren't.

You were everything I wanted. But I guess not what I needed.

You made me feel special.

None of my anxiety or worries mattered when I was around you. 

We were in our own little universe. 

I felt seen, safe, and accepted with you.

However, you never reached back out to me after March.

What happened? 

I opened my heart to you, just so you could disappear. 

We were no longer on the same page. 

You had other plans disregarding me. 

You were far ahead of me this whole time, and now you are leaving.

 

It is challenging for me to accept. 

Arrows stab through my heart every time I think about you.

I hate how my thoughts still revolve around you. 

I can’t be mad at you for not having feelings towards me though. 

I just wanted closure. I still do. 

Although, I will have to accept that there isn’t and won’t be. 

I’m not going to deny that it still hurts even after four months.

You bruised a part of my heart that will take time to heal and recover. 

I don’t know if I regret everything though. 

I enjoyed the time we spent together and the sacred relationship we built. 

How do you perceive what we had?

I wish I could see your point of view. 

Unfortunately, I’ll never know.

And that's okay.

I felt weak when you first left; embarrassed, lonely, rejected. 

Yet now, I believe this experience has made me stronger.  

For what it's worth, I learned that my heart has grown to express more love. 

And at the moment, I believe that giving myself that love is necessary.

How can you love someone else if you don’t know how to love yourself first? 

My intentions are to be more introspective and mindful of my inner self. 

Therefore, gaining the awareness to understand and love myself on a deeper level. 

I’m grateful for where I am at and my goals to better myself. 

I hope you enjoy where you are in life and who you are as well. 

I wish you the best in what you choose to pursue next. 

Maybe the universe will bring us back together someday if it’s meant to be,

And it will be easy, lighthearted, and raw. 

Nothing but love,  

Valentino G.

Author's Note

Anything regarding grammar or writing for improvement would be great thanks.