On my Search for the Meaning of Life

On my Search for the Meaning of Life 

On my Search for the Meaning of Life 

In search for answers what I have come to find is, if I were to ask one hundred different people what the meaning of life was, I would get one hundred different answers. Many of which would simply answer in the direction that life has no meaning. It seems quite the easy answer, but I have put up the fight in refusing to believe this, to accept this but that does not mean that I am right. It seems that no matter how hard I try to be an example in showing, that life does have meaning, order, and direction and, and most of all, purpose, I will fully admit that following this road is sometimes the hardest thing in my life to do.

 

  I have watched as so many people around me produce stronger evidence that life is nothing more than chaos, no matter what you do. I admit that sometimes it really gets hard not to just accept that as the truth. But what I see through my eyes is those very same people unaware that they are striving to walk the same path as do we all, in looking for, reaching for and wishing for meaning to our life, answers to the meaning of our lives. Those who are aware of and admit to our quest, along the way meet more and more people who are wishing for and wanting the same things that you are. An understanding to a better way of life, a life with meaning, a life with purpose, a life that makes sense. Along this quest, I have found so many that clearly are here to help each other find our way. 

As I have become more and more witness to this, aware of this, I found answers to what really seems to be going on. At times I feel as though this belief in, search for, quest for understanding life with meaning, and the meaning behind life, has brought so many of us together, who needed not to be alone in their search of the very same things. They needed, were also in search of direction, support, and friendship, and along their way, on their journey, on their search for answers they found it and in this taking place I have witnessed a very big part of the meaning behind life. A world of strangers finding a comfort, a unity, becoming friends, based on the way they choose to look at life, at their lives.

So many times, I have seen where this leads to a better acceptance of happiness, fulfillment, and pleasure into their lives. The meaning of life. The struggle I face with this answer is that I come to find or realize that this is only temporary.  I come to realize the people will eventually fall right back into their depression, the darkness, the misery, and blindness that I thought that they were trying to escape from. Instead, I come to question if they were merely clinging to a place that allowed them to ignore or deny the problems in their life, for only a temporary amount of time. Not at all truly trying to overcome their challenges, only trying to hide from them. Living a life without meaning.

 

    I live in a world where people are learning to walk together, instead of a world where everyone continues going separate ways. A world of chaos, no control, and no hope, truly no meaning. How disappointing it sometimes is to think I find someone who sees things the same as I do, and then finding out I was only seeing what I chose to see, and believing what I chose to believe, finding myself once again asking if life truly does have meaning.  The same words that I have heard a thousand times from people I thought were fools, realizing myself how easy it is to lose sight of that meaning of life I once saw so clearly and instead finding it easier to just live life day by day. Living on the balance of life with meaning or no meaning, waiting for something to show me the way once again.

  Timothy Britton  1998