f**k... f**k....breaking f**k

i apologise for its rawness and its wierdness i wrote this as im having a f*****g breakdown... i dont know if its art but its real and i needed an outlet

f**k... f**k....breaking f**k by ~Colourlessrainbow breatheless panting tears whimpers why am i hurting so much strength control temperence voice why have you abandon me I stand on a road, one side is sparse trees,  barely visible through the fog i stand on a cliff, there is no wind, and something unseen seems to hang in the air. i lie, curled on my bed, a pain in my chest ive never felt before but know is not physical, and a knot in my mind, that i cant seem to argue out i crunch, folding into myself, trying to escape the world within and without, in the fog is there a path? a choice? or does it go on, a destiny and existantental hope, tries to claw its way from sore limbs and tired eyes as i go on hours sleepless. i dont like words, they cant know, yet i try to make them dance and group like ironic little lovers flaunting what i stand to lose, have lost have killed, have buried, have ended. part of me is bleeding, looking in music art and symbol for something more part of me, is silent. waiting. a breathe. it was hard i did it im breathing im still crying... but im breathing.

Reviews

[Red]

I saw this and I knew I had to give a review. I'm in the same boat right now. I'm going through a breakdown too and my outlets have been taken from me. I think I may know how you feel right now: You feel betrayed or maybe you just feel like your worthless. Every day of your life now feels like a burden and that there is no silver lining. Frankly, you might want to just want to lie on the road and pray a bus runs you over. I may not seem like it, and I'm positive you've heard this multiple times, but there are people out there who care about you and know what your going through. Just give it time and try your best to look at what you have. A famous quote I was told
"Life doesn't always give you a royal flush, what matters is how you play your cards"
Hang in there
-Red

[stellasautelle]

feeling a bit like that now... sad but lovely poem full of emotion

[A sea person]

Can I give you an internet hug?
Very raw emotions.