Activity Log Highlights (incomplete)

Analysis of the journey before, during and after I began this venture.

Activity Log Highlights & Review:

                February 2012 Synopsis:

 First day I joined Facebook: 22 Feb. My very first post? A complaint about the “pointless” nature of Facebook. Idiotically call my workman’s comp injury “sweet”, flap on about my legal dilemma, and how I’m going to fight it.

                Emphasis:

Well for all you who have enough free time, like myself to actually listen to my inner workings, here goes: I'm on the verge of real change in my life. I've put down the bottle, got myself a sweet little foot injury (workmans comp. $$$) and am branching out to discover the real passions in my heart. First things first, I am trying to get involved in NORML so that we can finally end the puritanical stigmatism our society has placed on dope smokers, I'm heading to CWI for classes in horticulture tech. so that when i do get a settlement, I can either get an organic farm started here in Idaho or move to Oregon, get my medical card and become a caregiver (probably a hybrid of the 2) or even go as far as Cali and learn how to become part of a dispensiary and grow for them. Other than that, I'm expanding my mind through literature both fiction and non-fiction, getting plenty of exercise (nature walks and hikes in the surrounding desert basin) and learning how to recognize the inner spirit of myself and the people my atoms bump into. Now I think I'm gonna get a snack and meditate for a spell. Hopefully I hear from some of you i "friended" and get a peep into how your lives are. Until then Vien Sens Mort (Live without dead time)!

                Thoughts/Feelings:

Oh my god…this is going to get ugly.

 

                March 2012 Synopsis:

Street corner philosopher and chronic whiner. For the former, trying to sound poignant and provocative; as for the latter, simply bitching about how miserable I’ve made myself. Reaching out to old friends who are no longer in my life. Fucked up with my new opportunity by going over to a friend’s house and getting completely drunk. It’s been 5 years; Maybe I can try again with them.

                Emphasis:

A passion would be nice, but I've flatlined. Injured and inadequate. That’s how I feel.

                Thoughts/Feelings

The brief emphasis was chosen because it’s going to be a recurring theme, I can tell. It even reflects some struggle I’m feeling today. Now, my injuries have nearly completely healed, & I don’t feel inadequate, but this is the donkey on my back; negative loathing leading to poor choices and use of precious time. I’m going to use this work, and other workings, to finally defeat the donkey, &, to use my Tidal Storm metaphor, find adventurous, enriching journeys on the seas of time.

                April 2012 Synopsis:

Quiet month; only 3 short posts. Conspiratorial ramblings. Pathetic attempts to sound smart. Stupid joke to a former friend.

                August 2012 Synopsis:

After 3 months of nothing, very uninteresting posts about online dating farce, reaching out to old friends, and a semi-political aphorism. No need to dissect this one.

                September 2012 Synopsis:

Much busier month: Trying to reach out to friends, a couple off-beat aphorisms, a stupid shared meme, health tip, donation to St Jude’s (trying to look altruistic but really looking like a dolt), and the coup de gras, gossiping about friends who were former lovers! Bravo!

                Example:

I love how my serious inquiries into the mysteries of the universe get brushed aside, but the moment one spoofs and, for example, says something kinda rough about person A on person B's wall: Boy howdy u better believe I hear about it. Just goes to show u what most ppl r in it for: the drama. Not the mystery.

                Thoughts/Feelings:

I learned a valuable lesson about social media this month; you can’t talk trash on it and not expect it to come back to you, in one way or another. This lesson was a much broader one than I could fathom, and it’s going to many more hard knocks until I figure out this applies to the Giants as much as well as everyday friends or people.

                A Brief Interlude:

It is worth mentioning I was quite active during Oct 2012-December 2014, the missing 2 years and change. Many close to me would say, too active. Not sure if I deleted these myself, or some other hand is at play here. I lean towards my hand; I vaguely remember doing the “safe” move on more than one occasion. I will devote a separate section to this time frame. Also, anything striking that I recall during that time. For the time being, back to the activity log!

                December 2014 Synopsis: