Imbalanced Love

Something I'm sure others feel as well.

 

Isolated and distant,

I keep my core from society

Suppressing all that I feel

Helps to deal with life's dichotomies

My fortress was augmented

Strong, sturdy, and nigh impregnable

Yes indeed it was secure

I thought it was indestructable

 

 

I said damn you woman

Perfection made flesh

You're made me feel human

Have I become blessed

 

 

I'm a thinker true and through

I know the lessons of my past

Experience droning in my ear

"Now you know this won't last"

My belly has never fibbed

I rely on it's council

I ignored my gut

It's a paranoid swill

 

 

I don't know how put into words

How you make me feel

Wait a minute, yes that's it

.....You make me feel

You speak and I am consumed

In a heavenly pain.

You broke through and found my core

I did not complain

 

 

Happy and dandy oh yeah I felt fine

Never said "B***h, I'm gon' Dig out your spine"

I revered you like a goddess all of the time

And when you said you loved me, God D****t I cried.

"She doesn't love you, you a*s! It's mere infatuation"

My gut's words I heed not. I loathe it's aggrivation.

 

Imagine my chagrin

 

You said I was kind and sweet

But I'm not Johnny 6-pack

No one's ever made you feel the way I do

But I'm not Jhonny 6-pack

You said you loved me because I am a real man

But I'm no Johnny 6-pack

YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME!

I dont have a 6-pack.

 

 

God am I embarrassed

Why didn't I listen

Deep in my core I knew

I should have just listened.

I met you and my logic went "whoosh" out the ball park

The ominous clues were calling, like an old world lark

You destroyed my heart and I had that s**t safe

And you want to be friends oh yeah that's f****n' great.

 

So tell me how do manage, how are we to become friends

When I promised to love you till beyond times end

You love me you say but just not in that way

Then our love is imbalanced, cause my love wont ebb or fade

I'm angry and bitter and I wish your love was there.

But I can't love you less, that'll be my cross to bear

 

 

 

Douglas S. Williams

Author's Note

My 6th poem...Largely based on a special someone.

Reviews

[closed account]

It sucks huh? you want to believe with all of who you are, yet the whole time that little red flag was waving in the distance but we chose to ignore. Friends??? ha, when you are in love with that person it doesn't work... Out of all your poems that I have read thus far, this one seemed so personal to me.. I don't know it just did...

[IMOGEAN]

Most love is imbalanced. The Brady Bunch is a fairy tale, as is most of the love stories in books and fables. Real love--- is to be out of control. The part that makes the mind reel and the stomach turn is just part of it. Love-- it is one scary ride to heaven. Or, to hell if ones is not so fortunate.

God Bless
Imogean~

[Rambling Prose]

So sad, yet true - this emotional roller-coaster life and relationships has, eh? This piece is a no-holds-barred write and poignant at that. In the second stanza, I think you might have meant for (you're) to be (you've)...

good write - empty feeling

(smile)

[Rhine Wolf]

Still one of my favourites!