All because of you

From a person who felt nothing at all, to a person tearing up at anything at all...

What is wrong with me

Why can I not stop crying

A stranger says something nice to me 

and I feel it,

This rush of emotions.

I watch people get married and cry like I never have before.

This sudden flood came out of nowhere.

I never cried, never for emotions anyway.

I cried for the physical, 

but never emotions. 

I blocked them all out, 

every single one,

I blocked them out because it was easier to feel numb. 

For 11 years I have gone on like this.

Why has it changed now?

Why am I tearing up when people have bliss?

Why can I no longer control my feelings?

It must be you 

Ever since you came into my life, 

I have felt everything.

I have felt pure pain and pure love.

I have felt sadness and frustration, patience and anger,

I have felt.

I have felt things

 that I have tried so hard to avoid,

but you brought them all back.

I hate crying 

You know I do

but everything that has happened since you 

has brought on this flood, 

one that I can no longer stop.

You make me feel everything,

There's no longer a block.

What ever you did to me 

I don’t know If I should hate you for it

or be singing your praises.

I sit here crying 

because whatever you did,

made my heart start to beat...

I don’t think that it's dead. 

Author's Note

Anything to help me learn will always be great.

Reviews

[Nisreen]

Its safe to say
i am exactly at this stage emotionally
you spoke my mind and heart

This is really well done !!!