Goodbye Perfect World

I´m Back~! Never thought you´d see me again did you? Well downturn in my life equals more poems for you, so here it is!

Goodbye Perfect World

I had a perfect world once

I had found the perfect life

I thought I could forget all that had transpired

I thought I could move on

I had become used to his new life

This life without the past

This place I never could have dreamed existed

The glass I thought was concrete

Goodbye Perfect World

You shall be mourned for eternity

Hello Sorrowful, Destroyed World

You shall kill me inside

Always worried

Always wondering

Always hearing

Always knowing

And yet the prospect of being lied to

The prospect of this all being hidden

From that which broke my world

Is scarier than this

It is losing that which created the perfect world

It is what hurts above all

I miss the perfect world already

And it has only been broken for but 24 hours

I am lost without a saviour

I am bleeding out from the pain

As I sit here in sorrow

Typing these words of my soul

It still happens

The source still exists

And there is nothing I can do about it

Powerless

Hopeless

All of the feelings of my past returning

Killing me in one fell swoop

And as I lie here, my lifeblood weeps

Gushing out of me in a painful torrent

I know what is happening

I know what I feel

As the pains of old wash over my body

I do not regret the choices I have made

I only wish that salvation will come again

And that I can regain perfection

I walk across the plains

Of my tortured mind

Knowing every second I stay

The source of my pain is still torturing me

And the thoughts worm their way into my soul

Until I am wracked with torturous pain

I plug my ears and cover my eyes

And breathe to cut out the thoughts

Goodbye Perfect World, I enjoyed my bliss

Goodbye Perfect World, I enjoyed thy beauty

Goodbye Perfect World, I wish I had ye back

As I fall slowly into the black