Move Over, I’m Moving On

I saw that you were pregnant
Jenny’s getting married
Mary bought her first house
But we’re only 25
Are we not too young
A picture posted of Anne
With her soon to be husband
Lisa posted a story
Yes I’ll be your bridesmaid
Visa won’t stop phoning me
Thought I’ve blocked the number
I can’t pay up
My mom yells down the stairs
That I’ve worn out for years
Dinners ready
But I’m too busy scrolling
Seeing Patrick and his puppy
Franny on her flight
Out of this sad town
England
Where she always said she would go
I eat my pasta
Though I said I’d cut out carbs
Mom asks me how’s my day been
But I can’t say
Because the lump in my throat
Is chocking me
I just nod and smile
Am I too old to be at the table
That I hit my fist upon as a teenager
Yelling at my sister in angst
She’s moved out now
She’s moved on from here
So why can’t I
My phone rings through dinner
Mom says it could be a friend
Wanting to see me
But all my friends
Are too far out of reach
Unknown number
Voicemails left
Mailbox full
Past my limit
Pay up
You’re not a child anymore
Ignorance can no longer be bliss
Simply just a crime
Charlie with her child
Joined with Tara and her toddler
Opening up fresh bottles
Of prescriptions
Sitting in my childhood room
Letting the Valium seep in slow
Pam got her promotion
Ciera hosted the celebration
My phone won’t stop ringing
So I turn it off
And lay in bed
Eyes wide
I can no longer blame my lack of life
On wasted youth
Can no longer pretend that days won’t pass
And I won’t grow older
How my knees snap
And my neck hurts in the morning
But I’m scared to lose the comfort of childhood
Scared to lose the accessibility to self
Giving myself to routine
And forged roads
No forks to eat with
No path to choose
It’s time to grow up
It’s time to move on

Reviews

[Earthrise]

This is currently my biggest fear. To wake up in five years' time and realize I'm still in the same place I am now: left behind. I guess it's good to know that others feel the same way.

I was hit especially hard by the line "ignorance can no longer be bliss." I miss the easy life of a child, but I equally miss the fact that that life was acceptable at the time. Now, I feel the judgement radiating off people when I take things easy like I did back then.

Thanks for this piece. It strikes close to home.

[Aura]

This piece conveys the message of growing up and getting left behind. All around this person, people are taking huge steps in their life such as getting a house, marriage etc, or moving away from home. Yet this person is stuck, nothing is really going on for them, they feel like they are missing out, not doing all they could have been at this stage in their life. Although they are 25, they still find secureness in childhood, fear of growing up? I found this piece to be interesting, because alot of people are afraid of growing up and changes in their life.